My Testimony: Exit from a Black Greek Lettered Organization

(written on Facebook July 4, 2012)

Ezekial 33:1-5 

1 Again the word of the Lord came unto me, saying,

2 Son of man, speak to the children of thy people, and say unto them, When I bring the sword upon a land, if the people of the land take a man of their coasts, and set him for their watchman:

3 If when he seeth the sword come upon the land, he blow the trumpet, and warn the people;

4 Then whosoever heareth the sound of the trumpet, and taketh not warning; if the sword come, and take him away, his blood shall be upon his own head.

5 He heard the sound of the trumpet, and took not warning; his blood shall be upon him. But he that taketh warning shall deliver his soul.

So it is true. I have been silent on this issue for way too long. I have been deleted from the page of those who figured it out and felt disgust. None of that matters really. What matters to me is that I am convinced that God didn't show me so I could keep it to myself. It was meant for me to share and help others see the urgency of the decision made. A lot of people have heard this same message so many times their brains have stopped processing it and they just respond: "I don't worship <fill in greek org here>".  At this point, I believe this is an hour of urgency and I have to do my part. In 2009, I denounced my membership in Delta Sigma Theta. I wasn't planning it. contrary to the popular belief that the enemy would have some of you believe, it wasn't because of the tension between me and some of the people on the line I crossed on, I denounced despite the fact that the reality of the matter saddened me. I want to deal with each of these in the rest of this post. When I say that I wasn't planning to denounce, I mean that. I was working to fulfill my purpose of being called to teach our youth. As I gained experience in the classroom, I felt an overwhelming responsibility to the youth I was teaching. Not only in my classroom, but any that I had the fortunate chance to connect with outside of the classroom as well. This love for being a teacher wasn't in me as I walked into the classroom in 2005. I fought it all the way - a lot of you know that. I thought God had mixed me up with someone else (imagine that). But it was true as it is becoming more and more evident with each passing day, I am in place to be a beacon of light for those who have been damaged and counted out. I thank God for this privilege. So where was I? Oh yes…here...I am VERY visual person. Things that stick out when I look at a person don't usually stick out to the average person. Not because I think I am this or that, it's just an observation that I have noticed over time. I said that to say, the way fashion shifted quickly in 2006 to all things grim stuck out to me like a sore thumb. I literally saw death on the people wearing certain things. I thought I was over-reacting. So I began to research the Ed Hardy movement among other clothing lines.

As I began this research, hoping to know what to specifically pray for with our youth and to say to them, I noticed extreme similarities with some of the symbols of satanism and greek lettered organizations. I blew it off at first, but it seemed as if I was finding this information on purpose. I felt like I was meant to find those things right then, right there. Again, I discounted it because this was not my focus --I was doing this for my students and it wasn't about me. At that time, I had this huge conviction regarding the music I was listening to, but I was still wrestling with that and didn't want to give it up (to be honest). So I began to see these same symbols on my EWF cd, my outkast cds, my tupac cds...The connections were daunting. I opened the cover to one of my EWF cds and it was an interview inside the cover. The interviewer asked them how have they remained so timeless over the generations. Their response was something like well, when we debuted, we wanted to give to our people an alternative to Christianity. At this time, people were really into the "going back to Africa" movement. Everyone was blacker than black and trying to find their lost culture. So we decided that we could be that alternative, infusing our songs with our spiritual beliefs of cosmology and astrology. IMAGINE THAT THIS IS IN THE CD COVER THAT I HAVE HAD FOR YEARS!!! So I look at the bottom of the cover and there are several symbols that they attribute to their spiritual beliefs. I look them up and their meaning along with the symbol again allow me to make a connection to my membership in Delta. So, here I am thinking that I was going to get educated to help my kids and boy was I wrong. I believe God used that to get me to turn my attention towards the truth because there is nothing no one could have said or showed me to get me to this point. I had heard it all too and everyone saying that membership in these organizations was not of God was quite simply -- WRONG! At least that's just how I saw it.

Now, I am sitting here with this compelling information STILL thinking that it's just a coincidence. So I gave up all the music that day, but I still didn't think that was enough evidence to denounce my membership in delta. So because I partly felt I had an obligation to look further knowing what I knew through the research, God began to put people in my path that would confirm that it was indeed necessary to denounce. So, I went through a gamut of emotions, first I wanted to just denounce the chapter I was a member of. I came to college in very solid friendships, friendships I still hold near and dear to my heart to this day. My experience in college was quite different. Especially when I joined delta. There was so much turmoil,  and I can own that I created a some of it. Even as I was brought in,  it was just a very dysfunctional atmosphere. So I was all for denouncing my chapter, but I wasn't trying to hear denouncing my membership in the sorority. I loved the regional and national meetings. I loved being able to meet new people and connect right away. I loved the PRIDE of being affiliated with something exclusive that had things I couldn't tell anyone outside, but linked me to people inside. DISCLAIMER: This is not an attack on anyone, I am being completely honest in hopes that someone could understand and connect with what I am writing.

Now, I realize what I am typing is a very unpopular message. I am not typing it to make anyone feel bad. I am being completely transparent HOPING/PRAYING that if you don't do anything else, you will at least research the origins of freemasonry and greek organizations. Compare the rituals to verses in the bible. It is as if someone took the bible and wrote the exact opposite of it in the rituals to curse souls OR replaced God in the scripture written in the rituals with the organization's name. The songs you sing at every formal meeting, they are praise and worship songs to your beloved organizations. This is a tough post to write, but I am obligated. My loyalty is to God, I have to. I owe it to the people I talk to everyday knowing that there is an underlying current in every word you spoke when you were an initiate. Some of you bowed before false gods in your rituals (delphic shrines), I know I bowed in front of a red candle standing for wisdom which represents Minerva. So while I did not spend any time worshiping her as a member, I did as I went through the rites of passage to become a delta. Research rites of passage and why it's called that. Do some research on kemetics and notice the striking similarities delta has to babylonian religions of mysticism.

It's not just delta, it's all of the organizations. Have you ever wondered "if it's about community service why can't you just pay your money and become a member? Why do you have to dress alike in ceremonies and say things in unison or alone from a script to gain membership?" I joined the national science teachers association and I clicked a button and paid my money and immediately became a member. I do hours of community service with them and on my own. Why was all of that necessary to become a member of a greek organization? That's because those rituals have a meaning! They are not just some book of words put together by a group of college women or men that just wanted to have a presence in their communities, etc. Those words were carefully crafted. I meant to save all this until the end after I told my story...yikes! So let me finish my story and then I will continue with this...

So I addressed that I didn't plan to denounce. I sort of addressed that the devil is a liar having people content that I denounced because there was tension between me and some of the ladies I crossed over with so let me pick up here. So I can't really remember what the tension was about, but I know that I was tired of living the lie of "we are all so close" when the truth is there was so much drama there. Again, now I see that I used my influence to heighten the drama so I am definitely not innocent in how I conducted myself. I hurt people, people hurt me, it was a mess. I certainly didn't come into the membership with those habits, but it didn't take me long to exhibit them. Am I saying that it's delta's fault that I behaved this way? I am not, I am saying that I was so engulfed in it that I went with the program without evaluating who I really was versus how I felt I should respond or act. From the moment I crossed over into the plot, I was ridiculous...let me digress there...let's just say I was so full of pride and anger it manifested in so many different ways. So, there was definitely tension there at the time when I was faced with the need to denounce. I admit at this particular time, I was only okay with denouncing the chapter I came in through. I was, at the time, affiliated with a graduate chapter that I adored and thought that was where I needed to be. So again, I was all for denouncing my college chapter, but I wasn't even interested in denouncing as a whole.

God wasn't done though. I let it all marinate for about a month. I thought it was behind me. I continued to witness to my children about clothing symbols and spiritual context. Then I met a guy that waltzed into my church with red tatoos all over his face. Red tears tatooed streaming from his eyes. He said he was heavily into witchcraft and just wanted to be set free. As he sat in that service, I tried not to stare, but I was so drawn to all of the symbols tatooed all over him. I recognized EVERY single one of them. They were all witchcraft symbols. Some which Ed Hardy uses in his clothing line, some that I have seen on hip hop artists, etc. I remember talking to this minister who witnessed to a warlock that got saved. He said that he would just cast spells on people based on the symbols they had tatooed on them, on their clothes or as jewelry (stars, circles, peace sign, anarchy symbol, etc.) and watch their lives change over time. He said he would wait at bus stops and touch kids and send a rush of power through them. He would recruit them by asking if they wanted to learn how they could do what he had just done to them on their own. CRAZY! Yet, we go day to day not realizing how important the full armor of God is and why we should be wearing it (and not wearing dark symbols).

So, I attended a Women's conference in the fall with a very close friend of mine, I call her my god-sister (because indeed God sent her my way). This was a conference in Mytle Beach and there were about 15 of us in attendance. So we go to the opening prayer session. The minister was praying and then she asked all us to stand as she wanted to pray for us each individually. So when she got to me, she begins to pray the prayer that she had prayed for the women before me. As she prays she stops abruptly and begins to pray a totally different prayer. What she said in that prayer, what she broke off of me blew my natural mind! I so wish I could share what she said, but the time is not right. NO WORRIES, I will definitely share when that testimony is complete. So let me also say that I am very particular about who I let pray over me, touch me or "speak into me". I am typically the one that sits in the pew and observes while this is going on, you won't catch me running to the altar for a word from the prophet. I am not knocking it, but once I understood how things work in the spiritual it made me a whole lotta aware of what people could do in that moment of prayer. So I had to put that out there.

So after the conference, my sister called me and asked me to walk on the beach with her. It was dark by this time and I was sitting in my room in a very reflective state. I had so much to process and I knew that all of this was real. I came down the stairs and we walked along the beach. As we walked, she began to talk because I really wasn't up for much talking, but I did want to be with my sister. She says "Sister, I think God is leading me to denounce zeta (my eyes widen, but I stay silent). I can't shake the fact that when I was going through the initiation I had this feeling that it wasn't right, but I just kept ahead because I felt like I couldn't just quit, I had gone that far. I never shook the fact that it didn't feel right though". So now I say "Sister, me too. I didn't say anything because I felt crazy. We had a crazy experience in college as soon as we went over with us being told we were going to hell because we were members...two people on the line denounced right away, it was crazy...so I feel really crazy right now. The one thing I am questioning is why. I want to be able to explain it to people. I feel like maybe it's not denouncing but maybe I need to disassociate with some people in the organization (still don't want to give it up, girl?)"...

So I decided to fast from media. I wanted to hear from God. I began the fast and felt led to pick up the ritual and read it. So I collected all of my delta stuff (rituals, induction manual, etc.). My sister collected her stuff and we met at my house. We prayed for discernment and for every presence of pride to be cast down so that we could see what we needed to see. We each began to comb through the rituals. We cried on and off because the words were so blatant. I still don't understand how I missed it really. The blasphemy, the witchcraft spells...it was all in there. Evoking of spirits, you name it, it was in there.

As I read, God was making it very plain. There was no way I could deny what I was seeing. I believe if you are truly studying His word, trusting and seeking him, He makes your path straight. I believe because I asked Him to show me the truth, He revealed it to me. I believe that this message is not about me as it is about anyone that is standing where I once stood. I know this is not something He was just saying to me. I did manage to make a chart comparing the word of God to the contradictions in the rituals and other materials. If you are wondering, I no longer have any delta stuff. I was burned in (crossing the burning sands) so I burned myself out.

My sister, Hubby and I took all of our stuff to the country and burned it. Contrary to popular belief, the enemy would have some of you believe that I forced my husband to denounce his membership. I am here to disgrace the enemy today with the truth. The truth is, I shared my convictions with him in full. We decided to pray about it. The only thing I begged him to do was to not ignore my convictions and to take the research path. While he researched (this was over a few months), I prayed. I asked God to show him what He showed me. And He did. We are one. If he meant it for me, then...but it is important to both me and Anthony to never force what we feel on one another. If we can't talk about it or take it to God privately then how could it be important?

So, what God revealed to me was that the spirit that inhabits through these memberships is pride. This is why you have the delta room, the que bookshelf. This is why your facebook profile picture is your organization. You want everyone to know that you are a member. That's worship, exaltation. I know this is hard to read. I ask that the Lord help you in Jesus' name. I am serious because I know this thing is serious. Go back to your rituals and look for the place where you exchanged Christ for the god of your organization. It was in the zeta rituals, it was in the omega rituals, it was in the delta rituals so I am convinced it is in all of the rituals as they all come from their father - masonry.

I am writing this because eternity is a long time to be wrong. You owe it to yourself to ask God to show you the truth - whatever it may be!